Happy Pills.

Long time no talk! I know I know, I've been slacking. Which isn't all too surprising. I really have a hard time keeping up on this blog. Not because I don't want to write, but because life takes over sometimes. I love this blog, it makes me so happy! I just go through these phases were depression takes place. And I can't do ANYTHING. I don't even put make up on. It gets pretty pathetic in my opinion, and it sucks. I want to do all these things. Yet all I do is watch TV and wish my life was different.
Who is that girl?
It's not me. I mean, it is me, but I mean in a more philosophical sense. I'm normally a happy, go-lucky, positive person. But the chemicals in my brain go crazy every so often.
So here is my deep dark secret. I take anti depression pills.
I know this is pretty personal stuff. But I feel obligated to inform all my readers. Maybe some of you go through the same thing? If so I'm here for you baby!
The reason I sometimes go through speed bumps is because I forget to take them. And then comes the sadness and self pity! But no more. I now have an alarm on my phone to remind me to take them everyday.
I used to be embarrassed for taking 'happy pills'. I thought I was pathetic, stupid, horrible, and many more. I thought that taking the pills, meant that I wasn't in charge of who I was anymore. That the real me was not taking pills to help with my emotions. Eventually I learned (with the help of my boy toy), that taking anti depression pills doesn't make you less of a person. It makes you a better person, because you are choosing to be happy. It's not my fault that my chemicals in my brain are lazy! I just have to give them a little push in the right direction.
I know I won't take them for the rest of my life. I just need the boost right now, and I think I'm a better person for admitting it.
Here's to taking medication to help our stupid brains out.
Man that was cheesy, let's get back to normal, shall we?